and why is it so hard to get together? I'm tired of expecting you to make it happen, but far too drunk to try myself. She said the highs are pretty high, but the lows last so long, I come out of it broken & bored.
and we all knew what was going on in the pool, it was all tongues and lurches and bodies quaking in unison. Obviously it excited you to be around so many people. I don't think that justifes it.
But if these are the sort of things you need to do, to not feel so shit, then so be it. I know that you're slipping. I don't want you gone.
*I hardly think those things you do to yourself are in any way constructive, But then again i hardly think at all anymore.*
And I don't think Elliot Smith is helping. It's not cathartic if he makes you want to die.
and you wonder why you're not invited. You're becoming depressing to be around. The cut, and the burns and the way you look at her. It's all a bit predictable.
AND IV'E NEVER HAD FRIENDS LIKE THE FRIENDS I DO NOW. HOW DO I GET RID OF THEM? HELP ME GET RID OF THEM.